|Betty Tipton - Washington Avenue, Downingtown, PA 1948|
Four years ago today my Mother died. She was 86 years old. She died of complications from diabetes.
Like many gay men, my Mom was my best friend. I was her first born. She always wanted a girl because she lost her mother before she was two years old. She even had a name picked out for me: "Louise", which was her middle name (no snarky remarks from my gay friends now).
|My Mom pregnant with me - Demi Moore copied this pose - my Mom was ahead of her time|
When she was pregnant with me, her sister-in-law was expecting at the same time. She wanted a boy who she was going to name "Ronald". She had a girl (who was born four days after I was born) which she named "Louise" (of course).
|My cousin (and "namesake") Louise Tipton White - 2005|
The only sad fact, other than my Mom has been gone four years, is that during the last year or two of her life, when she was slipping into dementia, she became very angry at me. That always saddened me but my brother, who is a professional caregiver (along with his wife - how lucky was I?) assured me "That wasn't Mom, Ron."
So, this morning on the fourth anniversary of her death I am profoundly sad (again). It is at times like this that I sense the feeling of letting go of my lifelong zest for life. That I think when I do die I will no longer have this pain of knowing she is no longer around.
Bill misses her too. They were only four years apart in age and were good friends.
|Bill and Mom October 5, 1975 Hopewell Road, Downingtown, PA|
|Me and my brothers and our Mother at J. C. Penney's for the family portrait - 2005|
|Mom (four years old) with her two older brothers George and Randy - they later tore the head off of her doll - 1928|
|Mom with her nephew Bill Tipton and her sisters-in-laws (and best friends) Mabel and Peggy Tipton - 1946|
|Me and Mom in her garden - she loved to watch me and anyone to work in her garden - LOVE to direct|
|Mom in her "director's chair" in her garden|
|Me and my Mom in her garden July 4, 2002|