Earlier this evening I was talking to Bill about all I've been through this year health wise. First the biopsy for prostate cancer. Then the news that I had prostate cancer. Then the procedure to measure my prostate glad prior to surgery. Then the surgery.
Then just the past two weeks, three visits to the emergency room for kidney stone. Passed one and had surgery to remove the other stone, requiring a two night hospital stay. Then the stent that I'm wearing now in preparation for surgery next week to remove my remaining two kidney stones.
You know folks, things that used to get me riled up like the current political debates. The rudeness of the annual onslaught of drivers to our fair resort destination. The never ending worry about the increase of prices of just about everything except my retirement income. All that "stuff." After the events of this past year, which isn't over yet, I'm just concentrating on living folks.
There are a few things that give me great pleasure. Blogging and my blogger friends are one. My gardening and back yard are another. Living everyday with Bill and making him happy is another.
My part time job at the hotel where I get a chance to meet and sometimes joust with the guests (over rates) is another.
And then there are the few special friends I have in life which I share my hopes, rants, raves and just nothing like Larry, my old high school friend. Bill B., another old high school friend. My friend Tom J. from my Philadelphia work days. My wonderful neighbors Bob and Barbara M. whom Bill and I visit often. I cannot stress how important it is to have wonderful neighbors. I know, because we have had the Neighbors From Hell.
|Me with Larry, my friend of 62 years|
|Me and my friend Tom J. last month during his annual visit to Delaware|
And now I've made a new friend with my friend from Canada who I am sharing more of my life with. As I mentioned in my previous blog posting Pat brings out the best in me. Thank you Pat, I am so thankful and appreciative you have entered my life at this time. I'm not a religious person but sometimes I am tempted to believe Someone is watching over me. To save me from myself.
|The big Plus in my life now - my friend Pat|
After witnessing the near war that almost began this week just because of some hateful people in the Middle East, I realize even more today how important just living is.
All my life I have known the threat of total annihilation. First during the Fifties and the atomic bomb. I remember in school we were told to "duck under our desks" if an atom bomb was dropped. The old "duck and cover" lie. Even at eight years old I knew that was ridiculous.
Then there was the Cuban Missile Crises. That one almost blew us off the planet.
Then Vietnam. Then Iraq. Always a war, always hate and destruction. Sometimes it is overwhelming just to think about how quickly and violently one could die just because some testosterone laden madman wanted to rattle his saber.
Then these ailments that began to hit me as I aged. Folks, I am just tired. So tired. I'm tired of fighting things I can't change. My health will eventually deteriorate and I can't stop evil. But I can be happy. I can find happiness in every small corner. And I will.
|Applying for my marriage license|
I've noticed a changed in my attitude the past few months after going through my personal health challenges. I'm going to concentrate on living. I'm going to concentrate on my friends, my family (I have a family reunion coming up October 6th which I am planning) and those who I love (they know who they are).
|My brother Isaac and our two cousins Darlene and Rita at the last family reunion - smiles and love|
|A brand new me in my backyard|