Yesterday was a particularly hard day here at Casa Tipton-Kelly.
I have this phlegm build up in my chest which just exhausted me yesterday. I didn't want to do anything. So of course that's when Bill had issues.
Bill's main problems are his eyesight (he has macular degeneration) and hearing loss. His hearing aid is out at the VA for repair so I have to shout multiple times for him to hear me. Then he can't see. On top of everything else his cognitive issues are increasing. Yesterday was the perfect storm.
He was all confused about his portable radio. Since he can't see to work on his projects he depends on his radio to keep him company. He would like me to talk to him all day but yesterday my voice was almost gone and on top of everything else he can't hear or understand me most of the time. Yesterday was one of those days I wanted to go to bed and not wake up.
One of my biggest worries for a long time was that I would die before Bill. That worry has receded with time. If I do die before Bill, things will work themselves out. I can't tie myself up into knots worrying about what will happen to Bill should I die first. Granted, it's not the easiest worry to dismiss but dismiss I must in order to survive and continue to take care of Bill.
Other factors that contributed to yesterday's almost meltdown was that my DIRECTV genie box failed. I'm waiting for a replacement. Thus I can't watch TV. I just can't watch TV with those painful commercials, especially that new Dell commercial with all the whistling. I hate whistling. This commercial even has a "bonus" of a woman making sucking sounds through a straw at the bottom of a plastic cup. Who thinks these commercials are good? Dell always has had the worst commercials just like their computers. This from a former Dell computer owner multiple times. Every frigging Dell computer I had sucked, just like their commercials.
This week I'm looking at multiple doctor appointments. In a half an hour is my audiology appointment. In fact I have to go now. I originally went this morning at 9:00 AM but I had the wrong time. It's at 10:30 AM.
Thanks for putting up with my venting folks.
2 comments:
I am still reading about you all Ron.
Keep your chin up and keep battling onwards. You truly are a hero in my eyes.
Please keep us informed of everything. I love reading about your life,warts and all.
Bless you and Bill and take good care of yourselves
Love from overseas Jacinta x
Jacinta,
Thank you so much for your support. It means a lot to me. You can be sure that I'm sharing (almost) all about my life,, warts and all. Sometimes it's really a challenge but I have to keep reminding myself I'm not in Ukraine with Russia for a neighbor.
Ron
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