|Me waiting at Dover Subaru yesterday for my Forester oil change|
Hi folks. I had several ideas for unique and interesting postings but I'm just not up to it after events of the past week and the one BIG upcoming event of Monday, undergoing a prostate biopsy procedure. I've written about this before and won't go into it again here but it is one my mind and affecting my mood and enthusiasm. I was supposed to get this procedure last year but changed my mind but have decided to do it this year just to rule out any possibility that I have prostate cancer.
So here are some of my random thoughts are things bothering me right now.
|My cousin Jana - I doubt if I'm violating her privacy by posting this picture of her with her cat|
Notice that the picture of the cat I had at the top of this blog is now gone. That's because it was a picture I took of a former friend's cat. He sent me an e-mail stating that I post "everything online." Well actually, I don't post "everything online" but he did say I was violating his privacy by posting a picture of his cat. He has a every right to do that so I took the photo down and replaced it with my dog Horace the day we got him as a puppy in 1982. Bill is holding him in his lap. I can post this photo because Bill doesn't think I'm "violating his privacy." Notice that I mention "former friend." I know where his attitude is coming from. It's coming from another former friend who was ended our friendship because he took offense to something I said on one of my previous blog posts. I think it was something about me not giving advice in the future when asked for it because my advice is rarely if ever taken. He took offense and sent me an e-mail saying "Sorry I wasted your time....bye." Sort of a flimsy excuse to end a friendship don't you think? I did too.
|Me with my friend Bob's cat - I don't I'm violating his privacy by posting this picture of his cat|
I sent an e-mail back to my former friend and told him I removed the picture that so violating his privacy. I also told him to stop reading my blogs if he is so offended. I also suggested to him to tell my other former friend (who is a friend of his) to stop reading my blog if it so offends him. What is it with these people?
|My friend Larry with his cat - have I violated your privacy Larry?|
So you see folks. It's been a bad week. Someone I liked a lot stood me up for a lunch date that he requested, thus giving me the reality check that apparently my friendship wasn't as important to him as his was to mine. A couple of other guys I thought were friends are offended by what I post to my blog. I'm not in a good place this week.
|My brother Isaac and "Bobby", my one and only cat - 1954 - I didn't ask Isaac's permission to post this photo but the cat was mine so I guess it's okay to post this picture|
I have a couple of relatives on my Facebook page who are Righties and testing my patience with their gun-toting, Hate Obama postings into unfriending them. Then to top everything off some douche bag hijacked my Twitter account and sent spam to all my Twitter followers.
I think part of why I don't feel well now is that I had to take stop taking aspirin a couple of weeks ago prior to this biopsy. I am on a baby aspirin regimen because I almost constantly have a dull, throbbing headache. This week has been especially bad.
|My Mom with her "bedwarmer" (Molly) - Mom never minded me posting photos of her cats and I never knew anybody more private than my Mom - go figure|
Some people have asked me "What is the secret to your long relationship with Bill?" You know what it is folks? The answer is very easy. Bill respects me. Bill likes me, warts and all. Bill likes me as I am. He's not a hateful, spiteful, controlling, jealous, and selfish person. He thinks I'm important. And I feel the same way about him. Everyday I count my blessings that I found someone like Bill because I would hate to think of what my life would have been like with some of the so-called "friends" I've had in my life. I have acquaintances, not friends. I had better realize that then I won't get my feelings hurt the next time my friendship is taken for granted. I admit it, I'm too sensitive. I go overboard. I will try to correct that weakness in the future.
I do have a few good friends (not counting my blogger friends who are in a different category). Ironically they are friends from my high school days and from my former life at Girard Bank. They know who they are (all four of them - yes, I can count them on one hand). They know me. They accept me just the way I am. They do not try to control me. They like me. I know them and like them. They also are not perfect like I am but I accept them as they are. I have tried to accept my newer "friends" they way they are but without much success.
Ironically the friend who stood me up to lunch asked for the date because he wanted to know how our (me and Bill) "open" relationship worked. It's simple, when Bill asked me to move in with him back in 1964 I turned him down. I told him "I'm still going to go out and I don't want anyone controlling me." He said he understood and would never try to limit or control a "22 year old". He said that was the fastest way to end a relationship. He was right, that is the fastest way to end a relationship with me, start dictating to me how to live my life. Doesn't work with me folks. Maybe it works with someone else and maybe they even prefer to live that way but I would never accept a relationship where someone controlled my life. Nor do I control Bill's life. We come and go as we please. This is what works for us. And it's not all about sex either. When some hear the word "open relationship" they think we're out there swinging from the chandeliers. I wish. No friends, what "open relationship" means to us is that one doesn't control the other. Yes, I can have friends outside our relationship. I can even have romantic friends. So what? None of them ever lasted nor did I expect them too. The initial physical attraction always wears off then it's the character of the person and in all my years I have yet to find anyone to match Bill's love for me. And I have never loved anyone like Bill. No matter what we will always be together because he understands me and I understand him.
So this time next week I hope I'm in a better frame of mind. Had to purge today though. Bad week.
|Me at the dentist earlier this week. That went well - no cavities!|