|Waiting for the American Legion van this morning|
This morning is one of those few times that I am alone. I just got back from dropping Bill off for his ride to the VA Medical Center in Wilmington. The American Legion Post 28 provides free van rides Monday through Thursday for any of us vets here in southern Delaware to the Wilmington VAMC.
Now I am alone, for a while. I often complain to Bill that I never have time alone. Bill is always here. Bill is a real homebody. Ever since I asked him to retire early from his job as an electronics technician from General Electric, twenty eights years ago in 1984, he has been at home...always.
I've written about this before in previous blog postings. The first time Bill read it he said his feelings got hurt. I didn't mean to hurt his feelings but he is ALWAYS HERE. He just doesn't like to go anywhere. He loves his home.
While I love Bill's company, sometimes I just like to have a little space to myself. In fact this is the number one reason why we fight. Yes, we do fight. What couples don't? With the exception of Ronald and Nancy Reagan, ALL couples fight.
So this morning I will have a taste of what it is like to be alone. You know what? I don't like it.
When I drove into our development I saw my neighbor Don's garage door open. Don's partner Al died seven months ago. Al and Don were together forty years. Now Don is alone ALL of the time. While Don and I are no longer friends (another story for another blog), I feel bad for Don. Forty years is a LONG time to be with somebody. Then to lose one's life partner after forty years has to be traumatic. I can't imagine.
I was alone for about a year in my life. I grew up in a family of five. I had two brothers. Then after school I was in the Army and I had plenty of company for three years. The time I was alone was from 1964 to 1965. The year after I got out of the Army until I met Bill and moved in with him in February 1965.
That was one year I was alone. I didn't like it. Nope, I didn't like it one bit. I was lonely. I lived in my one bedroom efficiency apartment in Coatesville, PA. I'm not ashamed to tell you that there were time I got very depressed. The solo life doesn't work for me.
|Bill getting in the American Legion van - leaving me alone|