The ocean was calm during my walk early this morning. Tomorrow may be another whole different story when Hurricane Earl roars up the east coast.
I always enjoy hearing the waves crash onto the beach during my walk on the boardwalk. I'm thinking tomorrow those waves are really going to be crashing on the beach. I hope I don't have any problem getting to Rehoboth to witness Mother Nature in all her fury. Pictures will be taken. Maybe even a video or two.
At the half way point on my walk, I took a break and called John. I wanted to know how Mom did last night. John answered his cell phone and said "Mom is right here. We're feeding her." He asked me to talk to her. He put his phone up to her ear and she said "Ronnie?" in a very tired and hoarse voice. Well, she still knows who I am. I told her I was on the boardwalk and asked her if she remembered those days when I used to bring her down to Lewes in 2006 when I was staying at the Dawsons while my house was under construction. John took the phone and said "Ronnie, she can't understand you. Don't say much, just agree with whatever she says." She said she was sending me a check for my birthday. My birthday is November 9th. I said "Thanks Mom!" She didn't say anything else and John took the phone back. I told him I would let him go so he and Barb could finish feeding Mom her breakfast.
I think back to all those times Mom was the only one with me when I was sick or in the hospital. She was there when I had my tonsils out at eight years old. She was there when I came out of anesthesia from a hernia operation. Man oh man. I remember that one, I felt like someone had cut my abdomen open with a knife. Well, actually they did.
She was there again when I was taken to the hospital by ambulance when I almost died from a staph infection from the hernia operation. She was the only family member who visited me in the contagion ward where I was quarantined for months. I never thought I would get out alive. I was in the sub-basement of the hospital. She had to get down on her knees talk to me through a screened window from the outside.
She was there again when I was taken by the ambulance to the emergency room when I was passing a kidney stone. That time I thought I was really checking out for sure. I did not know what was the matter with me. I only know I wanted someone.....anyone to put me out of my misery.
I know I'm posting a lot about my Mom. Every day I think of another subject for my blog posting but I keep coming back to Mom. She has been so much a part of my life. To be honest, I always thought that I would go before she would so I wouldn't have to deal with her loss. And I always felt guilty for feeling that way.
I post on my blog the way I feel that day. I try to keep the negativity to a minimum. I'm a natural complainer but I know that's boring so I try to keep things upbeat. I consider myself a happy person by disposition. These days it is hard to keep this overwhelming sadness at bay.
I'm going to keep posting about Mom and pictures of her. Seeing these happier times helps.